A Revelation...and a Shoulder Bleed

I took "Christian" to his play therapy appointment earlier this evening.  It went extremely well.  The therapist had him playing in a sand tray as she watched him and asked questions.  It was very humbling to hear her talk to him.  She would ask him how he felt about infusing, about school, and basically what he thought about everyday things.

We had a pretty big revelation tonight...it looks like Christian's resistance to infusing started when we moved this summer.  He even said that he missed a few of his friends.  It never dawned on me that he would have trouble with the move.

It all makes sense, because he did not have any say in relocating.  It's as if he needs to take control where he can and put his foot down where infusing is concerned.

The funny thing is that he is thriving here in Rio Rancho!  He loves school, is doing very well in class, has friends at church and loves his new house.  But what we did not do was help him transition.  We just assumed it was going to be easy for him because of all the opportunites that were in store for the entire family.

Now that we are having to take him in to the HTC once a week to be accessed he has to be held down by at least 4 nurses.  There is just no other way.  We went through the drill this morning and now his shoulder is hurting.  I know it's a bleed starting.  And it must have happened while he was being held down.

This is absolutely breaking my heart.